A FOOL IN LOVE

Fuck producing real theatre!Fuck doing theatre to make change! fuck musical theatre being an art and not some children's cartoon show.Fuck this being everyone's theatre and doing things the professional way. Fuck giving ideas because sometimes i guess you come on too strong. Fuck trying to discuss probelems and fix them because you only piss people off. Fuck everything! Fuck sorry i have ideas too and would like to contribute and try to save what is left of that HELL HOLE of flufffffff!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sooon everyone will be gone. Sorry I don't agree with everything but i do try to make things work and talk through it but by then i just have convinced you to back the fuck off i guess. yes i have opinions but i also respect that you have yours. SOme may feel i have no right to get upset and maybe i don't but right now it doesn't matter. WHY ARE YOU MADDDDDDDDDDDDD AT ME? or hurt or annoyed or pissed off i was just trying to talk it out sorry i tend to jump the gun that is just what i do well i threw that idea away because i am not completely dumb and full of Stupid ideas i know it wouldn't happen it's not my company! BUt there is no reason to get so mad! AHHHHHHH FUCK

Current Mood: angry
Current Music: What you own

when the world turns blue
somewhere after you
I'll just have to handle it with all i know how to do
i'll write a song about you
how love can't live without you
how every place you touched me made me feel new
and when we are gone
our song will live on
some stranger will hear and say this is just how i feel
every line every moment is true
when the world turns blue


when the world turns blue
you will turn into
rhythm words and melody that show a power a new
and though the past may find you
with all i left behind you
I still will play the song that i wrote for you

and when we are gone our song will live on
some stranger will hear and say this is just how i feel
every line every moment is true
when the world turns blue

YOur eyes as we said our goodbyes
can't get them out of my mind
and i find i can't hide from your eyes
the ones that took me bye suprise
the night you came into my life
where theres moonlight i see your eyes
how'd i let you slip away
when i am longing so to hold you
and now i'd die for one more day
because there's something I should have told you
when i looked into your eyes
why does distance make us wise
you were the song all along
and before this song dies
i should tell i should tell you
i have always loved you
you can see it in my eyes.

* is it wrong that i cry whenever i think of her? that when i see her with him or hear her talk about him apart of me dies ? *

Current Mood: blank

Today went alot better than what i thought it would. Fun times at modjeska. Hopefully people are excited about the show IDK. But I am. All around we had very good performances. A couple of suprise performances as well. Hopefully people kinda have a feel for the show. I had fun though. The dancing was fun.IDC what people say i will do my best as choreogrepher because my heart is in it and It will be fun. I have already thrown myself into URban sound and fallen in love with all the actors at the workshop. This will be a lot of funn I see great potential. One thing i must find now are some African American males. So if you know any pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Urge them to audition. This is gonna be fun!!!
GREAT DAY!!!!!
YAYYYYYYYYYYY good day
this has been my dream forever!!!!
YAYYYYYYYYYYYY

Thank you to everyone that read. There is no way to explain how it feels to have your words come to life.

Current Mood: artistic
Current Music: the music makes me . THe music makes me

SO yeah. Today i got to the theatre supper nervous and actually for once checked all my props and costumes as soon as i entered the building. Amanda wrote me this letter that was amazing and made me cry and on top of that Katie Chrissy and Amanda made me this Break a leg poster that was soooooooooooooooo nice of them. Well gueessssssssssssssssssss what. I DID IT!!!! I got my NYU tisch summer academy AUdition!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!

don't stop I take back the thing about the ride i need to get over it